I took down all the entries I wrote since June 25, except this one and the one about heating soup.

If you read it, fine, if you didn't you'll never know what it said. I will bury it all and let God deal with it.

I always said I wouldn't take back something that I said, but I just did, and I'll have to live with possibly being called a hypocrite.

Fair enough. Call me what you want.

MMM

Setting fire to newspaper inside a pot to heat some soup in another pot.

And it was our fault: we hadn't paid the light bill because we had no jobs.

Today the world lost one it calls an angel....



and one it called a king....



and it will not be the same, no, no.

As I hope for all mankind who will follow, inexorably, this path these two have taken, I hope that they were met by Abba, and taken gently home.

RIP.

MMM

About three or four days ago I got chewed out by one of my friends who saw a horrible picture of me posted on Facebook. (No I'm not reproducing it here).

He asked me several times if something was going badly, if I was hiding anything from him. (I couldn't think of anything besides the mama drama.)

Over the next couple of days I thought about it, which was probably his intention: for MMMe to ask if I was hiding anything from MMMyself. I thought and thought and really couldn't come up with anything concrete, or definite.

I know losing my mother (she's not dead, just not part of my horizon) bugged me. By rights I thought to myself that I lost a whole family behind that stupid piece of dog*&&^ drama. That was sobering. I felt orphaned.

I'm preparing myself to step off the employee line. That's scary.

Then I thought about MMMyself this morning and each weekday morning as I walk. My theme song still fits tho.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M60cl7bKCMw

So, today it is Monday, and it is Morning, and I am Mary. Times have changed, but these things remain true.

So thanks, my friend, for checking in on MMMe. The path of self reflection revealed change for the better, not reflected in my outward appearance, but very very very apparent in MMMy heart.

Have a God week.

MMM

In our house there is a new father :) which is really cool. Right now he's sleeping with his family, even more cool. (I sent a text message into their bedroom to be responded to ATC.)

This morning in church I was thinking about the whole father thing, and then the pastor said, "How nice to have our Father to celebrate with us today."

I am not fatherless. Thank you Abba.

Happy Father's day to all you who readMMMe. Know that your children love you.

Abba?

Know that Your child loves you.

MMM

Today I started a whole new regimen. Again. Its details are between me and Abba right now, but I believe it will prosper. As I will.
I'm starting to feel a whole lot less attached to things I used to do. This is a good thing, it gives me a chance to take a look at things I might want to try, and things I MUST do in order to improve myself.
Technogeeks: Today I am having delivered a new cellphone. I know that's not big news to everyone, but it's significant enough to me to be announced here.

As I begin new things, I will be using this space to say goodbye to other things and people. That part is sad; I must bid farewell to my dream of my family being reunited and loving me unconditionally, but I have no choice if I am to move forward, because I love God more, and I must trust Him to care for them and mold them after His image, if they choose to be so molded.

And off I go into another new day. Have a God week, if I don't visit again until next MMMonday.

MMM

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